Aural Fatigue

Man­aged to uncover some nov­elty tonight, pushed Cru­ci­fix­ion Doll in another direc­tion entirely but one that made me much hap­pier. This is the song I have found entirely unyield­ing to manip­u­la­tion lately … I have spent the last 4 ses­sions, sev­eral hours each, really try­ing to wrench this out of the sonic hole it was in. Ter­ri­bly frus­trated, but then a break­through or two tonight. I just couldn’t leave it alone. Then, because suc­cess breeds suc­cess, hap­pened across 9soundware, which looks/sounds quite promis­ing… an answer to my recent con­cep­tual dilemma: do I dig in and spend some seri­ous time synthesizing/creatively edit­ing and make myself a library of sound and noise? Of course, if I had the time, this would be my pref­er­ence; but I feel the pres­sure of try­ing to get this first EP done, and there is still some sig­nif­i­cant song-writing to be done. Find­ing some interesting/powerful sounds/sampler instru­ments to use as a base would be a def­i­nite boon, let­ting me con­cen­trate on the song while still hav­ing some­thing son­i­cally wor­thy as a base. Even­tu­ally, I will have to gather my thoughts on sound-design/song-writing … since I am watch­ing myself work and I am see­ing that I find it hard to sep­a­rate these things — that is, the tim­bre of a given instru­ment will indi­cate a musi­cal direc­tion … change the tim­bre, change the direc­tion, change the melodies, change the song.

Then, I dug into some old PD patches and got them work­ing, and heard an array of impli­ca­tions go skit­ter­ing through the sound­scape and on into the clouds of impli­ca­tion. I got excited. Which is why I am up later than I promised I would be. Which is why, as usual, work will be a spine-grinding chore tomor­row– my brain will be only half-there.

So it is under­stand­able that I must now say — good­night. Goodnight.