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A crook of the neck..

So a thought occurred to me today, something interesting and unprecedented. I was standing in the bathroom, sort of half awed at the tile and silver aura of the place, and truth be told I think I had just weighed myself. If the scratched postcard of my memory is correct, the scale said 211.5 today.

In any case, it was one of those moments that you can see yourself, from outside, and I became conscious of the fact that I was looking at myself, and had just started to wonder if my self-awareness was contributing to my pose, the angles of my arms and crook of my head, as if I were posing for a scene in a book (that's what it almost felt like) and then - I sort of fell, rushing, through the veins of my own history, my own art, and the ideas I had burned through in years past. Maybe it was just all those mirrors, but thinking back on it now, I see ripples through quicksilver. Or maybe that's from the book in which I posed. And the thought was basically this: words.

Beuysian Belief Network, begun

It is with a slight ache to my head that I write this. I am also, truth be told, racing against a rather short-lived battery. Perhaps this is slightly metaphoric. Then again, perhaps not.

Now that I have gone and said that, I find my mind twisting around the idea of a battery. Not in the science sense, but in the Beuysian sense. You know, stored energy. Evolutionary warmth, packaged up for us in nice rolls of significant metals and active compounds. Portable spiritual ascension. You get the idea.

(And now that I say *that*, I am intrigued to find a way of making a "Beuysian Belief Network", to be the computurgical counterpart to the more common "Bayesian Belief Network". This could be some fun. Note to self, as they say.

Last flight of the Pixel-Bot

The beginning, of course, is a drawing out of the environment, a winding-of-the-world into a shiny, spindly, silvery strand that can be shaped into the letters of description. That way, we have place, we have a grounding, we have the terra firma- which is just a way of saying confidence, I have thought recently. I know where I am, that's a good beginning of things. Not the only beginning, mind you, but a good one.

From there we usually take a step. Which direction? I have had fun playing with little pixel-sized 'bots' whose sum and total of existence is consumed with this question- which way to go? Luckily for me, I have also programmed them to leave a trail. This not only gives them place, but also a past. At least from the god-like vantage of a programmer, surveying though an LCD window all of creation. As for the pixel-bots, it's better for them not to know their own past.

What are the Trend Lines?

So what is going on?

I am giving myself 10 minutes to recount the past few ages, and then I am off to a corner of the couch with a sketchbook and an indelible pen (beyond Confucius and his 'cross-words with a pen'... every sketched line must remain).

The sensation that rises to surface is of course, the heat. Thankfully, there is an angelic air-conditioner overhead and an altruistic little fan spinning its little molded-plastic heart out, which makes living bearable.

Edit: next day...

I missed the cutoff, as more observant readers might have guessed. Although it is somewhat understandable that the local 'maximum' - the highest profile- was the heat...

Penasquitos Night

So it is, now: even deep in the evening, the sweat is a creeping sheen, a soft but anxious insistence that lingers in a moldy, patterned heat mostly just beneath the skin. Mostly, in the sense that it lies implicit, subsensual, but every here and there crawls through the pores in what I can only see in my head as an 'epidermal seep'. Summer nights in Peñasquitos, where the ebbing roar of the highway rumbles as surrogate to the Del Mar ocean... and where the meager fan casts cyclonic shadows on the ceiling, shuddering wings raised high above the heads of my wife and daughter.

Mornings find us sitting in the pools of shadow, which have always seemed to me to be leftover pockets of night. It is grey, it is cool. But the heat rolls down off the hills, it seems, during the day, and radiates into our small living room, even into the furthest furthest corner where sits my computer nest.

Processing Portraits

Language Notes

Recent Language Research

in progress..

Trying to Move Forward

So this post is many, in nature. Ostensibly news about the current state of life, the actual inspiration comes from something as mundane as testing a little PHP snippet I wrote to window the 'latest blog' entry in the upper right block. So far, so good. I am moving forward.

I am skimming time off other responsibilities to do this- and while the list is too long for this humble forum, I can give you a teaser: I am supposed to be packing, for we are moving yet again. This time, inland; from dear Solana Beach (and our miniature aerie-cave-alcove near an oft-dreamt-of yet seldom-visited stretch of beach) to the drier lands of Rancho Peñasquitos (where we heard the celebratory songs of the coyotes, greeting us). And whilst coding is stolen time from packing, packing is stolen time from cooking, and- in some sense of things- all this is stolen time from entertainment, which is what Iryna and I have deprived ourselves of over the last, say, 9 or 10 months. Downloaded episodes of Lost don't count. After all, addictions are no longer entertainment, but rather ends unto themselves.

Something to Remember

Not the usual place for me to keep a note, but it's the closest thing at hand that I will not, subsequently and summarily, lose. Just heard a fantastic cello piece, composed by Benjamin Britten, on NPR (whilst on a mercy mission, like a great shaggy Great Bernard, for spirits). Must look this up at a later point

To decipher, huh?

FSEQ reflects the typologically observed fact that certain functional predicates (predicates used by syntax) universally appear in a certain hierarchical order. Every lexical (=non-functional) predicate in a unit of a CAR (Concepts Associations Representation) unit corresponding to a sentential meaning is associated with at least one functional predicate (they are all a part of the event structure and thus associated to the functional predicates that represent it, and also all predicates must belong to either old or new information). This secures that every predicate involving at least one fun

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